The joy and the agony.

Made up with Channing.
That makes me happy.
And oddly enough I hardly remember what happened during that time that caused us to....not talk.
However this seperation was a good thing.
Because now I'm more light-hearted, more me.
Now I can talk to him and not....not feel the pain and regret of realizing that I hurt him.


I like this.
I feel kinda like I'm five again.
I feel very free, very happy.
Which doesn't make much sense considering the past two days have been hell.
And considering that my "boyfriend" treated me like shit this afternoon I'm very surprised I feel this happy.
I think I'm going to have to break up with him.
I can't....
I can't deal with this.
And I don't even really feel like we're together.
So I don't know.
It's weird.
It's almost like we aren't even together.
Huh....
Okay, okay.
ENOUGH of this depressing stuff.
I told Channing this blog would make him smile.
So he has to SMILE.
DO YOU HEAR ME CHANNING?! YOU NEEDS TO SMILE.

XD.
I'm just like yelling at everyone today.
Like earlier I was yelling at Tany.
I was like.
"YOU ARE CUTE! NOW ADMIT IT!"
It was hilarious.

Now, what to talk about hmm......
So, I'm obessed with medieval roleplays at the moment.
I'm re-reading the twilight saga.
I'm currently reading Eclipse.
I feel hyper and want to dance in the rain.
But it isn't raining.
Oh my nephew Charlie is here.
But he's behaving for once and leaving me alone.
Oh I gots to hug Karl and Zach on sunday.
but I think I already mentioned that....hmm....I need to go re-read my blog and find out.
Lol.
My memory! It's dying! nooo!


J/k.


XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. If I didn't blog about Zach and hugs then I'll do it in a minute.