Better.

"She is too fair, too wise, wisely too fair,
To merit bliss by making me despair:"
- Romeo, Act I Scene I.


So today, while we were out of town and mom was at the library I sat down at one of the tables and pulled down the book entitled "Shakespares complete works" or something like that.
And I began to read Romeo and Juliet.
I barely made it past Act I Scene III.
As soon as I finish Breaking Dawn, I'm going to the library to get Romeo & Juliet and while I'm at it, I think I'll read "A Midnight Summer's dream."

The pain did not come to over take me last night.
It's funny how all day yesterday I'd been on the verge of tears and then when I was ready to cry, the tears wouldn't come. I just kinda layed there listening to the soft music that came out of my speakers as I just....remembered.
Took in all the old memories.
I realize now that I don't have as many memories of him as I would like to have.
But I have enough.
I even managed to crack a couple of smiles last night.
And today I am...better.
Less upset.
More content.
Noticing that silver lining I couldn't see before.
Taking the time to realize that he is in a better place and that one day I'll see him again.
Today is a better day.
And tomorrow will be better than today.

Slowly, ever so slowly I'll mourn less and less over his death and smile more and more.
Today I haven't felt that pain as much.
I felt it creep up on me for a little while.
But then it left.

In the end, I will be okay.



XOXO,
Dollface

P.S. The reason I posted that quote from Romeo and Juliet is because it caught my attention, and I really like it.