Life is chaotic.

Work was just....ugh.
Complicated, fun, annoying, and like so many other things.
I had a moment today where I wished I could just hug Jacob and tell him that everything would be okay, to promise to him that it would be.
But I couldn't lie to him like that.
Even though everything will be.
I don't know how long it'll take for it to be okay.
All I can do is pray and be a good friend to him.


XD.
Chrtistina's post to our Twilight roleplay just made me smile.
I needed that.
I need to smile and forget about today and all the problems.
I need to think of ways to get Jake and them to cover and hang out.
I need to be happy and cheerful and just...me.
But it's diffcult.
So very difficult.
Still haven't heard anything from Ethan.
It worries me.
Sometimes I suck at saying things.
I should have worded that message better.
But I didn't.
And I'm sure I'm screwed.

But ah, this song is so amazing.
I've always loved it.
But lately I've been quite obsessed with it.
"Your Body Is A Wonderland" - John Mayer.
Tis amazing <3

Today was warm and sunny and even though the day at work was somewhat rough I wasn't too tired and so I put on my new bikini and went outside and worked on my tan and started cleaning out my pool.
I have to finish that sometime in the next couple of days.
My section of the garden is doing good so far.
Tomorrow I shall be picking the first strawberry off the bush.
And sometime soon I'll be picking the first bananapepper as well.
I'm not sure how my bellpeppers are going to do though.
I hope they live and produce <3


But uh yeah.
Gonna get to work on my blog "Flame's Inspiration"
It kinda died when I got grounded.



XOXO,
Dollface.