Tany + Ali + Me = BFFS

So, Lee(Tany).
Finally posted that blog that Ali was dying for her to post.
The one that shows the mature side of Lee.
A side I've seen a lot more in the past couple of weeks.
Like, after she read my 'emo' post.
She wanted to tell me that I was important to her and that she loved me and that I shouldn't feel that way because her and Ali were here for me.
And it made me feel a lot better, just because like.

Lee doesn't know me as well as Ali does.
And even though I know I'm one of two friends she has.
There's something about.....having her say it.
And having her say it the way she said it.
That made me happy.

And now like, to see that Ali is upset with Lee and to see that Lee feels bad about it.
Makes me sad.
Which is normal I guess.
But seriously.
It makes me feel weird when them two are fighting or when their upset with each other.
Because I'm like. "What do I do?" "Who's side should I be on?" "Who's right? Who's wrong?"
And I hate having to decide.
Because something about having to choose between two of your best friends just really, really sucks.

And like, I had to do that at camp.
Which it turns out was a good thing.
Victor and Laice are still together.
And they still look so happy and so cute together.

So, there's this blog post, I'm posting right after this.
And it's like really deep.
Because I was thinking about it last night.
Like how I feel about the different relationships I've been in.
And not just romantic relationships.
I mean like friendships, and stuff too.
See I was trying to fall asleep listening to slipknot last night when 'Snuff' came on.
And I got up and put it on repeat.

Beause I was trying to find the deeper meaning of the song.
Not just what the composer wanted you to know when he wrote it.
But what it means to me.
Like every song I really, really love.
Every song that I can honestly say is my most favortie song on an album.
Every song that I just start singing the moment it comes on.

Has a deeper meaning for me.
It has some kind of meaning that makes it special or important to me.
And I hadn't really found out what made this song so important yet.
Like a part of it would make me think of my relationship with Tyler, but even that didn't explain how important it is to me.
And then I started to think about Aaron and a couple of other people and suddenly I understood why I love the song so much.
Why every word means so much to me.
Why the song is one of very few that I could listen to when I was depressed.
So...I've decided to do a blog post to explain it all.


Anyways, I love you guys.


XOXO,
Dollface.