Silence

So, I kinda sorta fought with Ali yesterday.
She dooesn't like silences.
And I'm used to silences.
Like on the hour drvie to and from church.
I'm usually quiet, rather it's because I'm reading, or because I'm leaning back against the seat with my eyes closed, or because I'm staring out at the scenery I've seen a thousand times before.
The scenery that rarely changes.
Changes from season to season.
From beautiful fall leafs, to dead greeny, to bright spring flowers, to bright green leaves and then back to beautiful fall leafs all over again.
Of course, earlier this year it really changed.
Because of this huge fire.
Where tons and tons of acres burned.
So I have no clue what it'll really look like next spring.
I have to wonder will the flowers be wilder?
Will the leafs be greener?
Will everything look different?
Almost alien?

But yes, I am accostom to silences.
Like right now.
I'm so silent about so many things.
There's so much I haven't told my parents.
And it scares me how easy it is to keeps thing from them, espcially mom.
So yeah.
So much to tell.
And no time to tell it.
Perhaps tomorrow?
Perhaps not.
IDK.

Lol.



XOXO,
Dollface.