Hot Damn.

What are the odds of having two hot guys near by within a couple of weeks?.
Normally I would say those odd's aren't very high.
But I'm surprised to say it's actually happening.
Ethan will be here Sunday, April 19th for the Gun and Knives show.
Aaron will be in the state of Texas sometime within the next month for prom(Long story)
Don't know where in Texas though, which suuuucks.
But I'll find out.
I always do.
LOL.

So yeah, talked to Aaron last night.
We're on good terms.
I haven't gotten the full story out but I will.
I guess you could say I've gotten that closure I needed or w/e.
Cause like it doesn't hurt.
It does to a very minor extent.
Like...when you have a bruise for a really long time and after it fades to more normal colours you'll touch it in such away that it hurts a little?
Yeah, kinda like that.
Not enough for me to be worried.

So I guess I was right.
I guess Wednesday when I was outside enjoying the way the breeze blew in from the south while I picked up the trash in the yard and killed the thistles and thought that things would get better, that no matter how dark it is there will always be a light that'll chase away the clouds and reveal sunny blue skies and bright green grass and pretty yellow flowers.
Things always get better.
It just takes time.
So Ali, it will get better honey.
I know it will.
Because if it doesn't.
I'll stab it in the foot.

Lol.

So now I need to make another playlist.
But this time, it'll be a symbol for the beginning of good times, lots of laughs and plenty of smiles.
This playlist will be happy and more joyful.
A little more up beat and a little less depressing.
Maybe, just maybe I'll get out of this funk I've been in.
And I'll return to being me, completely and honestly me.
Wouldn't that be great?
To be happy and be that rock that everyone loves to lean on?
Yeah, I think that'd be pretty cool.

So even though it's only 10:06 AM and this day's already been like a rollarcoaster.
I'm gonna smile.
I'm gonna believe that today will be a good day.
It doesn't matter that mom's pissed at dad and ranting about it.
It doesn't matter(Well it does but if I think about it I'll get depressed and worried and won't have any fun) that mom didn't listen to me about her finger and now there's a chance she may actually lose it.
It doesn't matter that none of my friends can or will go to the concert with me, I'm content with just my BFF Karrie and my parents.
Today will be a good day.
So will tomorrow.

So yeah, I'll blog more once I've got my playlist done.




XOXO,
Dollface.