"Hell or Glory, I don't want anything in between."

I'm happy knowing that Ali is happy and had a great time.
Maybe not fully happy.
But happier than I have been most of the day.
Some part of me still wishes I could go see FOB in concert, but I know it's too late and there's nothing I can do about it.

Anyways, moms been in a pissy mood all day.
Not totally sure why.
But I do know part of it is because dad had trouble sleeping last night so she had a hard time waking him up this morning so we ended up running a little late.
But it really wasn't such a big deal since we got to church in time for me to do what I needed to do.
Also, she's pissed at me because I was "yelling at her and being a bitch" this morning.
And the only reason I got close to yelling was because I was walking towards my door and my music was up loud and I wanted her to be able to hear me.
But w/e.
If I worry about it too much then I'll just burst into tears or something.
And I can't handle that on top of everything else.
And like, it's not that there's a lot going on it.
It's just that I'm worried about how work is going to go.
Plus I've been so tired lately.
It doesn't make much sense.

Um....gave my pics + song to crystal today(There for the graduation video thingy)
After much debting we were stuck in between two FOB songs and I ended up deciding on "What A Catch, Donnie" even though it's a slow song.
I've just been kinda obsessed with that song recently.
So I decided that was the one to use.

Trying to be happy.
But the happy mood I felt is slowly slipping away.
My mind is so chaotic right now.
Almost like a hurricane.
I'm having difficulty coming up with a post for the RP I'm doin with Christina.
Still need to do the signs for Wednesday.
So I need to go talk to dad about what we want to do.
Problem is mom's in such a pissy mood that we probably can't get her opinion.
I don't think this house has ever been so filled with silence.
Like we've been silent and stuff before.
But not in this way.
There's this stiffness in the air.
Almost like I'm going to sufficate or something.
It was like this in the car after church too.
It's been like this almost all day.
It worries me.
I could almost cry.
Because I know that no matter what I do it won't change the situation.
Mom will still be pissed regardless.

Now even listening to FOB is getting on my nerves.
How strange.
Usually FOB doesn't do this to me.
They did to some extent when I was depressed but that was different.
And I'm not depressed right now.
Well, I am.
But not in the same way that I was before.
Headache is still here.
It's just not as strong.

Wish I knew what to do.



XOXO,
Dollface.