I'm actually posting something!
LOL.
Yuh, haven't posted anything recently.
Think it has something to do with being sick.
It screwed with my brian.
Wonder how my wifey is doing in there...hm.....
I miss her.
I wonder where she is.
Also, probably gonna post some random graphics I've created.
Maybe update my LB.
You know what's effed up?
I've been wearing cute things lately but by the time I get home I'm too tired to take pictures and in the morning I'm always in a hurry and don't have time to take pictures.
So perhaps today I'll get a pic of what I'm wearing.
It's not the cutest outfit I own, but it's still very cute.
Also, currently in love with "Lollipop" - Framing Hanley
It's badass.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Haha, I should explain things.
Yeah, I just totally realized that I never explained what the whole "*Dies* *Decomposes*" post was about.
Um, do ya'll remember me mention that Aaron would be here for prom?
And that he'd be in San Antonio?
And that I was going to get to meet him?
Well, I didn't find out that he was coming this weekend until he was already here.
So then I couldn't take off of work to go see him yesterday.
But then I took off work anyways because I was sick.
And then even when I started to feel better I didn't have a ride.
But then today I found out that because Preston wasn't feeling good that he probably would have liked it if I'd gone.
But yeah....it's too late now.
He got on a plane at about 4:30 PM heading home to Lousiana.
Hopefully I'll get to meet him sometime within the next year.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Um, do ya'll remember me mention that Aaron would be here for prom?
And that he'd be in San Antonio?
And that I was going to get to meet him?
Well, I didn't find out that he was coming this weekend until he was already here.
So then I couldn't take off of work to go see him yesterday.
But then I took off work anyways because I was sick.
And then even when I started to feel better I didn't have a ride.
But then today I found out that because Preston wasn't feeling good that he probably would have liked it if I'd gone.
But yeah....it's too late now.
He got on a plane at about 4:30 PM heading home to Lousiana.
Hopefully I'll get to meet him sometime within the next year.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Gun & Knife Show/Flea Market
Local Gun & Knife Show/Flea Market that we usually hold twice a year was today and yesterday.
Twas awesome.
Got a badass purse + Wallet/clutch by Coach at a really great price.
The best part? It isn't a knock off! It's the real thing.
And today?
Got to Ethan.
Got hugs from Ethan.
ANNND I find out that he actually pays attention to things I say on myspace.
Which surprised me because most people don't pay attention to that stuff.
But he did and so he asked about my cell phone and about getting my number.
YUH, HE WANT MY NUMBER.
MINE.
CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?!
Oh dear, I hope he doesn't read this.
It would be so embarressing.
But yeah, now I have his number and he has mine.
Which is awesome.
But uh...yeah.
Had a pretty good day considering that I'm still majorly disappointed that I didn't get to meet Aaron.
And I was so close.
So very, very close.
Only an hour away and I still couldn't drive the extra hour to see him.
Because I had to hurry home to see Ethan.
So yeah.
Good times.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Twas awesome.
Got a badass purse + Wallet/clutch by Coach at a really great price.
The best part? It isn't a knock off! It's the real thing.
And today?
Got to Ethan.
Got hugs from Ethan.
ANNND I find out that he actually pays attention to things I say on myspace.
Which surprised me because most people don't pay attention to that stuff.
But he did and so he asked about my cell phone and about getting my number.
YUH, HE WANT MY NUMBER.
MINE.
CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?!
Oh dear, I hope he doesn't read this.
It would be so embarressing.
But yeah, now I have his number and he has mine.
Which is awesome.
But uh...yeah.
Had a pretty good day considering that I'm still majorly disappointed that I didn't get to meet Aaron.
And I was so close.
So very, very close.
Only an hour away and I still couldn't drive the extra hour to see him.
Because I had to hurry home to see Ethan.
So yeah.
Good times.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Friday, April 17, 2009
*Dies* *Decomposes*
I can't be believe my luck.
I honestly cannot believe my friggin' lucky.
Shit, where's someone who'd be willing to drive me into San Antonio when I need them?
XOXO,
Dollface.
I honestly cannot believe my friggin' lucky.
Shit, where's someone who'd be willing to drive me into San Antonio when I need them?
XOXO,
Dollface.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Riverwalk (Part Uno)
As walked across the street towards the mall and we joked about how we weren't in New York, I realized that perhaps today would be a better day than I had thought.
With only four hours of sleep under my belt I couldn't be sure.
But I had hopes of it turning out well.
We walk towards the Alamo and checked out the beginnings of the Tea Party which already had tons of people there before we headed back towards the Riverwalk/Mall.
We argued with dad about rather or not we'd be going shopping on the way to lunch.
I texted Aaron and admired the beauty of the riverwalk, my eyes noticing the waterfall across the river and my nose taking in the scents of the many flowers that lined the paths.
And as I walked, I wished that Ali and Aaron and Tyler could be there.
I wished that I could share this warm day with them.
The wind was cool and sometimes fierce, but the sun was warm on my skin.
Once we had our little buzzer, I insisted on travaling a bit more of the riverwalk so that I could see what I hadn't seen since I was about six.
It was fun to watch the tourists feed the ducks, to smile at the hosts and hostess' who would smile in welcome as we passed their restaurants.
But then we reached a small gift shop and I had the pleasure of trying on some crazy called sun glasses and acting like a gangsta while wearing them to make my parents laugh.
Once we left there we headed back to Casa Rio and not too long after re-arriving our buzzer went off and we got an excellent table right beside the river.
And as I sat there and enjoyed the view, listening to the guides talk on the Rio Taxi's as they passed, I wished that I had remembered the get the camera out of the truck.
I took a view pictures on my cell, most of which didn't turn out.
And so I do not have those pictures to post.
XOXO,
Dollface.
With only four hours of sleep under my belt I couldn't be sure.
But I had hopes of it turning out well.
We walk towards the Alamo and checked out the beginnings of the Tea Party which already had tons of people there before we headed back towards the Riverwalk/Mall.
We argued with dad about rather or not we'd be going shopping on the way to lunch.
I texted Aaron and admired the beauty of the riverwalk, my eyes noticing the waterfall across the river and my nose taking in the scents of the many flowers that lined the paths.
And as I walked, I wished that Ali and Aaron and Tyler could be there.
I wished that I could share this warm day with them.
The wind was cool and sometimes fierce, but the sun was warm on my skin.
Once we had our little buzzer, I insisted on travaling a bit more of the riverwalk so that I could see what I hadn't seen since I was about six.
It was fun to watch the tourists feed the ducks, to smile at the hosts and hostess' who would smile in welcome as we passed their restaurants.
But then we reached a small gift shop and I had the pleasure of trying on some crazy called sun glasses and acting like a gangsta while wearing them to make my parents laugh.
Once we left there we headed back to Casa Rio and not too long after re-arriving our buzzer went off and we got an excellent table right beside the river.
And as I sat there and enjoyed the view, listening to the guides talk on the Rio Taxi's as they passed, I wished that I had remembered the get the camera out of the truck.
I took a view pictures on my cell, most of which didn't turn out.
And so I do not have those pictures to post.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Monday, April 13, 2009
"Doc, there's a hole where something was."
Everything on the inside just kinda shuts down once Tany comes into the converstation.
Simply because I know there's nothing I can really do to help.
I'm too far away to be of any real help.
All I can do is try to think of the words it'll take to ease the pain.
But do such words really exist?
When the pain is so strong, so real.
Do the words exist?
It's hard to believe they do.
I wish I knew what to do.
I wish I could be more of a help.
And I know she hates doing this to me.
Hates making me feel sad.
But if she can't lean on me.
Can't tell me exactly how she feels.
Then who will she lean on?
Who will listen?
If I knew that there was one other person in this world who could do the job, then that'd be one thing.
But the majority of people in this world are totally lame-o's and can't handle the job.
And so I'll do it.
Without complaint.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Simply because I know there's nothing I can really do to help.
I'm too far away to be of any real help.
All I can do is try to think of the words it'll take to ease the pain.
But do such words really exist?
When the pain is so strong, so real.
Do the words exist?
It's hard to believe they do.
I wish I knew what to do.
I wish I could be more of a help.
And I know she hates doing this to me.
Hates making me feel sad.
But if she can't lean on me.
Can't tell me exactly how she feels.
Then who will she lean on?
Who will listen?
If I knew that there was one other person in this world who could do the job, then that'd be one thing.
But the majority of people in this world are totally lame-o's and can't handle the job.
And so I'll do it.
Without complaint.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
201!!!!!!!!
LOOKY! LOOKY! LOOKY!
OVER TWO HUNDREN BLOG POSTS!
YAY!
XOXO,
Dollface.
P.S. I'm in a better mood, I should probably reply to the rp with Christina, problem is I need to go to bed now cause I have to get up early. Soooo.....MENTAL NOTE: REPLY TO CHRISTINA'S POST RIGHT AWAY TOMORROW.
DO. IT. NOW.
About the only thing that turned out good today is that I look cute.
I need to go take pics and add them to LB.
Suppose I should do that right now.
XOXO,
Dollface.
I need to go take pics and add them to LB.
Suppose I should do that right now.
XOXO,
Dollface.
"Hell or Glory, I don't want anything in between."
I'm happy knowing that Ali is happy and had a great time.
Maybe not fully happy.
But happier than I have been most of the day.
Some part of me still wishes I could go see FOB in concert, but I know it's too late and there's nothing I can do about it.
Anyways, moms been in a pissy mood all day.
Not totally sure why.
But I do know part of it is because dad had trouble sleeping last night so she had a hard time waking him up this morning so we ended up running a little late.
But it really wasn't such a big deal since we got to church in time for me to do what I needed to do.
Also, she's pissed at me because I was "yelling at her and being a bitch" this morning.
And the only reason I got close to yelling was because I was walking towards my door and my music was up loud and I wanted her to be able to hear me.
But w/e.
If I worry about it too much then I'll just burst into tears or something.
And I can't handle that on top of everything else.
And like, it's not that there's a lot going on it.
It's just that I'm worried about how work is going to go.
Plus I've been so tired lately.
It doesn't make much sense.
Um....gave my pics + song to crystal today(There for the graduation video thingy)
After much debting we were stuck in between two FOB songs and I ended up deciding on "What A Catch, Donnie" even though it's a slow song.
I've just been kinda obsessed with that song recently.
So I decided that was the one to use.
Trying to be happy.
But the happy mood I felt is slowly slipping away.
My mind is so chaotic right now.
Almost like a hurricane.
I'm having difficulty coming up with a post for the RP I'm doin with Christina.
Still need to do the signs for Wednesday.
So I need to go talk to dad about what we want to do.
Problem is mom's in such a pissy mood that we probably can't get her opinion.
I don't think this house has ever been so filled with silence.
Like we've been silent and stuff before.
But not in this way.
There's this stiffness in the air.
Almost like I'm going to sufficate or something.
It was like this in the car after church too.
It's been like this almost all day.
It worries me.
I could almost cry.
Because I know that no matter what I do it won't change the situation.
Mom will still be pissed regardless.
Now even listening to FOB is getting on my nerves.
How strange.
Usually FOB doesn't do this to me.
They did to some extent when I was depressed but that was different.
And I'm not depressed right now.
Well, I am.
But not in the same way that I was before.
Headache is still here.
It's just not as strong.
Wish I knew what to do.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Maybe not fully happy.
But happier than I have been most of the day.
Some part of me still wishes I could go see FOB in concert, but I know it's too late and there's nothing I can do about it.
Anyways, moms been in a pissy mood all day.
Not totally sure why.
But I do know part of it is because dad had trouble sleeping last night so she had a hard time waking him up this morning so we ended up running a little late.
But it really wasn't such a big deal since we got to church in time for me to do what I needed to do.
Also, she's pissed at me because I was "yelling at her and being a bitch" this morning.
And the only reason I got close to yelling was because I was walking towards my door and my music was up loud and I wanted her to be able to hear me.
But w/e.
If I worry about it too much then I'll just burst into tears or something.
And I can't handle that on top of everything else.
And like, it's not that there's a lot going on it.
It's just that I'm worried about how work is going to go.
Plus I've been so tired lately.
It doesn't make much sense.
Um....gave my pics + song to crystal today(There for the graduation video thingy)
After much debting we were stuck in between two FOB songs and I ended up deciding on "What A Catch, Donnie" even though it's a slow song.
I've just been kinda obsessed with that song recently.
So I decided that was the one to use.
Trying to be happy.
But the happy mood I felt is slowly slipping away.
My mind is so chaotic right now.
Almost like a hurricane.
I'm having difficulty coming up with a post for the RP I'm doin with Christina.
Still need to do the signs for Wednesday.
So I need to go talk to dad about what we want to do.
Problem is mom's in such a pissy mood that we probably can't get her opinion.
I don't think this house has ever been so filled with silence.
Like we've been silent and stuff before.
But not in this way.
There's this stiffness in the air.
Almost like I'm going to sufficate or something.
It was like this in the car after church too.
It's been like this almost all day.
It worries me.
I could almost cry.
Because I know that no matter what I do it won't change the situation.
Mom will still be pissed regardless.
Now even listening to FOB is getting on my nerves.
How strange.
Usually FOB doesn't do this to me.
They did to some extent when I was depressed but that was different.
And I'm not depressed right now.
Well, I am.
But not in the same way that I was before.
Headache is still here.
It's just not as strong.
Wish I knew what to do.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Whoa.
This blog has almost two hundren posts, can you believe that?.
Also, I tried to take a nap early today and I was laying down for like two hours and I think the most I got was like five minutes of sleep.
It totally pisses me off because like I'm soooo tired.
Going to dad's class reunion-ish thing tomorrow.
Should be entertaining.
And this time I'm going to take a picture of what I'm wearing.
Because I'm tired of wearing cute clothes and forgetting to get pics.
But I'll have my cell with me so I'll probably be on MSN like all day tomorrow.
*Hint Hint Nudge Nudge*
I wonder where my wifey is.
I had hopes of her being online today.
But so far no sign of her.
I hope she's okay.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Also, I tried to take a nap early today and I was laying down for like two hours and I think the most I got was like five minutes of sleep.
It totally pisses me off because like I'm soooo tired.
Going to dad's class reunion-ish thing tomorrow.
Should be entertaining.
And this time I'm going to take a picture of what I'm wearing.
Because I'm tired of wearing cute clothes and forgetting to get pics.
But I'll have my cell with me so I'll probably be on MSN like all day tomorrow.
*Hint Hint Nudge Nudge*
I wonder where my wifey is.
I had hopes of her being online today.
But so far no sign of her.
I hope she's okay.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
YAY!
WIFEY'S BACK!
SHE'S HOME.
LIKE NOT LITERALLY HOME.
BUT HOME TO ME BECAUSE SHE'S BACK WHERE SHE'S SUPPOSE TO BE.
I.E. BACK WITH ME.
UHH..YEAH THAT WAS CONFUSING BUT ANYWAYS.
SHE'S ONLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ME ISH HAPPY.
TEXT:
OMG, WIFEY'S BACK!!!!
AARON: WHO?
MY WIFEY, THAT'S WHO.
AARON: WHO'S THAT?
WELL, HE'S ABOUT TO FIND OUT.
OOOH YEAH!.
HAHA.
XOXO,
Dollface
SHE'S HOME.
LIKE NOT LITERALLY HOME.
BUT HOME TO ME BECAUSE SHE'S BACK WHERE SHE'S SUPPOSE TO BE.
I.E. BACK WITH ME.
UHH..YEAH THAT WAS CONFUSING BUT ANYWAYS.
SHE'S ONLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ME ISH HAPPY.
TEXT:
OMG, WIFEY'S BACK!!!!
AARON: WHO?
MY WIFEY, THAT'S WHO.
AARON: WHO'S THAT?
WELL, HE'S ABOUT TO FIND OUT.
OOOH YEAH!.
HAHA.
XOXO,
Dollface
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Converse + Mini-skirt + "I Bite" Tee + Zebra Stripped Tank = SHOPPING!
Went shopping today.
Bought a pair of black All-Star Converse, A Cute Mini-Skirt, a Purple Tee with this Vampire-ish Smiley face that says "I Bite" and a Spagetti zebra print tank top.
Almost bought this other really cute shirt.
But I didn't want to spend too much money since we're going to San Antonio to go shopping next wednesday.
Me and Aaron started texting at like 6:30 this morning and have been texting more-a-less ever since.
Every once in a while we'll go about hour without texting cause of him being in school and whatnot.
But...yeah, the only reason we aren't texting right this instant is cause my phone is charging.
It has an amazing battery on it <3
Lets see.....
Have to work tomorrow 6-1
About to finish that CD with pics and a song cause I got to take it to church on Sunday.
Um...I miss Ali very, very much.
Dunno where she is.
Work perhaps?
My feet hurt from wearing high-heeled boots while shopping.
Kinda sleepy.
About to reply to the post Christina sent me a couple of days ago.
Toying with the idea of making a video for youtube.
And...yeah.
I guess that's it.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Bought a pair of black All-Star Converse, A Cute Mini-Skirt, a Purple Tee with this Vampire-ish Smiley face that says "I Bite" and a Spagetti zebra print tank top.
Almost bought this other really cute shirt.
But I didn't want to spend too much money since we're going to San Antonio to go shopping next wednesday.
Me and Aaron started texting at like 6:30 this morning and have been texting more-a-less ever since.
Every once in a while we'll go about hour without texting cause of him being in school and whatnot.
But...yeah, the only reason we aren't texting right this instant is cause my phone is charging.
It has an amazing battery on it <3
Lets see.....
Have to work tomorrow 6-1
About to finish that CD with pics and a song cause I got to take it to church on Sunday.
Um...I miss Ali very, very much.
Dunno where she is.
Work perhaps?
My feet hurt from wearing high-heeled boots while shopping.
Kinda sleepy.
About to reply to the post Christina sent me a couple of days ago.
Toying with the idea of making a video for youtube.
And...yeah.
I guess that's it.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Funny Texting Moments.
HAPPENED JUST NOW:
Me: AND ALL THE GIRLIES SAY HE'S PRETTY FLY FOR A WHITE GUY!
Aaron: No I'm not.
Me: ARE TOO!
Aaron: No.
Me: Yes.
Aaron: I hate that song.
Me: Uh oh....
(I totally just made that song his ringtone, heh heh)
-----------
Me: I'VE GOT A JAR OF DIRT! AND GUESS WHATS INSIDE IT!
Aaron: A heart?
Me: *Gasp* How did you know?!
Aaron: I just do.
Me: Woow, you must be psychic........either that or your under my bed. Lol. *Gulps*
Aaron: I perfer psycho.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Me: AND ALL THE GIRLIES SAY HE'S PRETTY FLY FOR A WHITE GUY!
Aaron: No I'm not.
Me: ARE TOO!
Aaron: No.
Me: Yes.
Aaron: I hate that song.
Me: Uh oh....
(I totally just made that song his ringtone, heh heh)
-----------
Me: I'VE GOT A JAR OF DIRT! AND GUESS WHATS INSIDE IT!
Aaron: A heart?
Me: *Gasp* How did you know?!
Aaron: I just do.
Me: Woow, you must be psychic........either that or your under my bed. Lol. *Gulps*
Aaron: I perfer psycho.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Monday, April 6, 2009
"*Gasp* PASTA! Yum Yum!" - Me
Yeah, I totally just said that when I walked into the Kitchen and saw what was for dinner.
LOL.
XOXO,
Dollface
LOL.
XOXO,
Dollface
Sunday, April 5, 2009
"WE ARE THE RECKLESS YOUTH!"
Title taken from a song by Pillar.
It sucks that all their CD's were sold out the night before.
Cause that means I didn't get one.
BUUUUUT
Me In Motion signed my CD.
And Seth added something to mine that I don't think he added to anyone elses.
After he signed it he added "<3's U!" and then underlined it!
So yeah, I'm happy about that.
But yeah, the concert was amazing, it totally rocked.
My neck is sore from all the headbanging.
Fireflight also signed my CD and the lead singer told me I should leave my hair the way it is because it's awesome like this when I told her I'd love to do my hair like hers.
The only thing that sucked about last night is the fact that I totally forgot my camera.
But other than that it was totally and epically amazing.
So yeah, I had tons of fun at my first concert.
Hopefully they'll come back this way again <3
XOXO,
Dollface.
P.S. I'll be making a new playlist later due to all the awesome music I heard last night.
It sucks that all their CD's were sold out the night before.
Cause that means I didn't get one.
BUUUUUT
Me In Motion signed my CD.
And Seth added something to mine that I don't think he added to anyone elses.
After he signed it he added "<3's U!" and then underlined it!
So yeah, I'm happy about that.
But yeah, the concert was amazing, it totally rocked.
My neck is sore from all the headbanging.
Fireflight also signed my CD and the lead singer told me I should leave my hair the way it is because it's awesome like this when I told her I'd love to do my hair like hers.
The only thing that sucked about last night is the fact that I totally forgot my camera.
But other than that it was totally and epically amazing.
So yeah, I had tons of fun at my first concert.
Hopefully they'll come back this way again <3
XOXO,
Dollface.
P.S. I'll be making a new playlist later due to all the awesome music I heard last night.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
New Playlist
A sign of happier times;
1) Serena Ryder; Little Bit Of Red
2) Audrye Sessions; Turn Me Off
3) You, Me And Everyone We Know; Carolina Heat
4) 3OH!3; Holler Till You Pass Out
5) Boys Will Be Boys; That's Whats Up
6) Fall Out Boy; W.A.M.S.
7) The Black Ghosts; Full Moon
8) Mayday Parade; When I Grow Up
9) Tv/Tv; Get It/Get It
10) Me In Motion; You Never Fail Me
XOXO,
Dollface.
1) Serena Ryder; Little Bit Of Red
2) Audrye Sessions; Turn Me Off
3) You, Me And Everyone We Know; Carolina Heat
4) 3OH!3; Holler Till You Pass Out
5) Boys Will Be Boys; That's Whats Up
6) Fall Out Boy; W.A.M.S.
7) The Black Ghosts; Full Moon
8) Mayday Parade; When I Grow Up
9) Tv/Tv; Get It/Get It
10) Me In Motion; You Never Fail Me
XOXO,
Dollface.
Hot Damn.
What are the odds of having two hot guys near by within a couple of weeks?.
Normally I would say those odd's aren't very high.
But I'm surprised to say it's actually happening.
Ethan will be here Sunday, April 19th for the Gun and Knives show.
Aaron will be in the state of Texas sometime within the next month for prom(Long story)
Don't know where in Texas though, which suuuucks.
But I'll find out.
I always do.
LOL.
So yeah, talked to Aaron last night.
We're on good terms.
I haven't gotten the full story out but I will.
I guess you could say I've gotten that closure I needed or w/e.
Cause like it doesn't hurt.
It does to a very minor extent.
Like...when you have a bruise for a really long time and after it fades to more normal colours you'll touch it in such away that it hurts a little?
Yeah, kinda like that.
Not enough for me to be worried.
So I guess I was right.
I guess Wednesday when I was outside enjoying the way the breeze blew in from the south while I picked up the trash in the yard and killed the thistles and thought that things would get better, that no matter how dark it is there will always be a light that'll chase away the clouds and reveal sunny blue skies and bright green grass and pretty yellow flowers.
Things always get better.
It just takes time.
So Ali, it will get better honey.
I know it will.
Because if it doesn't.
I'll stab it in the foot.
Lol.
So now I need to make another playlist.
But this time, it'll be a symbol for the beginning of good times, lots of laughs and plenty of smiles.
This playlist will be happy and more joyful.
A little more up beat and a little less depressing.
Maybe, just maybe I'll get out of this funk I've been in.
And I'll return to being me, completely and honestly me.
Wouldn't that be great?
To be happy and be that rock that everyone loves to lean on?
Yeah, I think that'd be pretty cool.
So even though it's only 10:06 AM and this day's already been like a rollarcoaster.
I'm gonna smile.
I'm gonna believe that today will be a good day.
It doesn't matter that mom's pissed at dad and ranting about it.
It doesn't matter(Well it does but if I think about it I'll get depressed and worried and won't have any fun) that mom didn't listen to me about her finger and now there's a chance she may actually lose it.
It doesn't matter that none of my friends can or will go to the concert with me, I'm content with just my BFF Karrie and my parents.
Today will be a good day.
So will tomorrow.
So yeah, I'll blog more once I've got my playlist done.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Normally I would say those odd's aren't very high.
But I'm surprised to say it's actually happening.
Ethan will be here Sunday, April 19th for the Gun and Knives show.
Aaron will be in the state of Texas sometime within the next month for prom(Long story)
Don't know where in Texas though, which suuuucks.
But I'll find out.
I always do.
LOL.
So yeah, talked to Aaron last night.
We're on good terms.
I haven't gotten the full story out but I will.
I guess you could say I've gotten that closure I needed or w/e.
Cause like it doesn't hurt.
It does to a very minor extent.
Like...when you have a bruise for a really long time and after it fades to more normal colours you'll touch it in such away that it hurts a little?
Yeah, kinda like that.
Not enough for me to be worried.
So I guess I was right.
I guess Wednesday when I was outside enjoying the way the breeze blew in from the south while I picked up the trash in the yard and killed the thistles and thought that things would get better, that no matter how dark it is there will always be a light that'll chase away the clouds and reveal sunny blue skies and bright green grass and pretty yellow flowers.
Things always get better.
It just takes time.
So Ali, it will get better honey.
I know it will.
Because if it doesn't.
I'll stab it in the foot.
Lol.
So now I need to make another playlist.
But this time, it'll be a symbol for the beginning of good times, lots of laughs and plenty of smiles.
This playlist will be happy and more joyful.
A little more up beat and a little less depressing.
Maybe, just maybe I'll get out of this funk I've been in.
And I'll return to being me, completely and honestly me.
Wouldn't that be great?
To be happy and be that rock that everyone loves to lean on?
Yeah, I think that'd be pretty cool.
So even though it's only 10:06 AM and this day's already been like a rollarcoaster.
I'm gonna smile.
I'm gonna believe that today will be a good day.
It doesn't matter that mom's pissed at dad and ranting about it.
It doesn't matter(Well it does but if I think about it I'll get depressed and worried and won't have any fun) that mom didn't listen to me about her finger and now there's a chance she may actually lose it.
It doesn't matter that none of my friends can or will go to the concert with me, I'm content with just my BFF Karrie and my parents.
Today will be a good day.
So will tomorrow.
So yeah, I'll blog more once I've got my playlist done.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Wow.
I can't believe it.
I honestly can't believe it.
Aaron never knew.
Never had any clue.
And now I have to talk to him.
I want too.
He needs to know.
Needs to understand.
I'm so....excited...nervous that I'm jittery.
I wonder if we'll ever be friends again?
I doub it.
It's not likely.
And yet, there's this strange feeling my chset.
A feeling I hadn't thought I'd feel yet.
I'm starting to feel the beginning's of forgiveness.
Because if I can't forgive, then I can't forget and I can't move on.
Perhaps this is good then.
Perhaps it really was all in God's timing.
Maybe...just maybe.
This is perparing me for the future.
Maybe this will make me a better person.
Or maybe just maybe, we're actually meant to be together.
You never can tell, can you?
XOXO,
Dollface.
I honestly can't believe it.
Aaron never knew.
Never had any clue.
And now I have to talk to him.
I want too.
He needs to know.
Needs to understand.
I'm so....excited...nervous that I'm jittery.
I wonder if we'll ever be friends again?
I doub it.
It's not likely.
And yet, there's this strange feeling my chset.
A feeling I hadn't thought I'd feel yet.
I'm starting to feel the beginning's of forgiveness.
Because if I can't forgive, then I can't forget and I can't move on.
Perhaps this is good then.
Perhaps it really was all in God's timing.
Maybe...just maybe.
This is perparing me for the future.
Maybe this will make me a better person.
Or maybe just maybe, we're actually meant to be together.
You never can tell, can you?
XOXO,
Dollface.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Headache.
I still have a headache.
Christina can't go to the concert.
Karrie can though <3
Still have two tickets left.
There's a chance that April may go.
But if she won't/can't then I'll talk to A&O and see if they want to join us.
Hoping to meet some cute guys at the concert.
About to go take a shower.
Have to get up at 4:45 AM to get ready for work.
Hopefully my *new* uniform will be in.
I'm sad that I'm not getting to spend much time with Ali today.
But as long as she's happy then I'm happy.
Even if she does get to see Gabe and I don't.
Kinda tired.
Sorta sleepy.
I know those are like the same things, but who cares?
It's my blog and I can say what I want too.
Created a playlist titled; Faves for march/april.
However it's only my faves list for what I have on the computer.
If I had all the music I like on this computer the list would be like FOREVER long.
9:53 PM:
TAKING A SHOWER NOW.
FINISH THIS WHEN I GET BACK!.
10:20 PM:
OUT OF THE SHOWER.
Wow, that was waaaay longer than I expected.
So um yeah...
I'm thinking about sunday, cause sunday is when I'm hoping to get a cell phone.
I really, really hope I do.
You have no idea how long I've wanted one.
I honestly can't wait.
XOXO,
Dollface.
Christina can't go to the concert.
Karrie can though <3
Still have two tickets left.
There's a chance that April may go.
But if she won't/can't then I'll talk to A&O and see if they want to join us.
Hoping to meet some cute guys at the concert.
About to go take a shower.
Have to get up at 4:45 AM to get ready for work.
Hopefully my *new* uniform will be in.
I'm sad that I'm not getting to spend much time with Ali today.
But as long as she's happy then I'm happy.
Even if she does get to see Gabe and I don't.
Kinda tired.
Sorta sleepy.
I know those are like the same things, but who cares?
It's my blog and I can say what I want too.
Created a playlist titled; Faves for march/april.
However it's only my faves list for what I have on the computer.
If I had all the music I like on this computer the list would be like FOREVER long.
9:53 PM:
TAKING A SHOWER NOW.
FINISH THIS WHEN I GET BACK!.
10:20 PM:
OUT OF THE SHOWER.
Wow, that was waaaay longer than I expected.
So um yeah...
I'm thinking about sunday, cause sunday is when I'm hoping to get a cell phone.
I really, really hope I do.
You have no idea how long I've wanted one.
I honestly can't wait.
XOXO,
Dollface.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY!
Okay, so I've been outside most of the morning doing chores.
I have much to blog about.
However I wanted to post this first.
Because I know that Ali would have perferred me to be online instead of outside doing stuff.
And even though this won't make up for me doing other stuff instead of being online.
I hope it'll help her to know that the entire time I was thinking of her, I was thinking of other stuff too, but she was there in my mind th entire time.
Which is why I took some coal-y type stuff from the burn pile and wrote this on a rock;
XOXO,
Dollface.
I have much to blog about.
However I wanted to post this first.
Because I know that Ali would have perferred me to be online instead of outside doing stuff.
And even though this won't make up for me doing other stuff instead of being online.
I hope it'll help her to know that the entire time I was thinking of her, I was thinking of other stuff too, but she was there in my mind th entire time.
Which is why I took some coal-y type stuff from the burn pile and wrote this on a rock;
XOXO,
Dollface.
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