Just chilling.

Just got home from work about twenty-minutes ago.
Changed, talked to dad a moment.
Did a couple of other minor things.
And logged online about two minutes ago.
I'm currently reading Ali's blog.
I hate that her life is so....conflicted?
No, I'm not sure that's the right word.
So....messed up?.
No, it's more serious than that....
Huh.
I can't think of the proper word.
Well, that sucks.

*Exhales*
Okay, so perhaps I'm not very good with words today.
But I'm going to try.
So...I keep thinking about the graphics program I'm going to get.
But it's hard to be happy about that when Ali is in so much pain.
My heart aches everytime I read a post about how upset she is.
Like I said, I'm hurting.
But not as bad as she is.
Today I was out of it.
At work I kept zoning out.
And I was having a hard time focusing on any paticular thing.
I don't know why.
But I think it's because I miss Tany.
And instead of thinking about anything.
I think of nothing.
Just focus on one section of the grill or off the deep fryer and nothing else.

I woke up to the sound of rain on the roof.
We didn't get much rain after about 6:30 though.
It's been cold all day.
I really hate the cold.
Love the rain though.
Perhaps I'll have to mow soon.
Doubtful.
But possible.
My blog post is going ever which way it pleases.
I try to focus on one subject to talk about.
But I'm failing horribly.

I really need to sign on to facebook.
But I can't bring myself too.
Because I know Ali won't be there.
Kinda tired.
Kinda not.
Wish I knew what to do.



XOXO,
Dollface.