Christmas Concert.

Didn't sleep worth a flip last night.
Probably got like...four hours of sleep.
About to go to work at my bro's house.
We're going to Pastor Del's christmas concert tonight.
Christina and her parents might be coming.
Um...
Thinking about taking a nap on the way there tonight.
Depends on what happens today though.
And I suppose that's all I've got to say.
I love y'all.



XOXO,
Dollface.

New Blog

Like I said.
Still keeping this blog.
But I wanted a new one that I could be really, really creative with.
http://www.flamesinspiration.blogspot.com/
Flame is a nickname I've received due to the band I'm in.
Thinking about teaching Gowri how to use a BB gun if she was serious about wanting to learn.
Also toying with the idea of taking Charlie outside and teaching him how to use on before it gets dark.
So yeah....
If I do that then I'll BRB for like twenty minutes and then come back.
Hmmm...
I think I might.
LOL.

Oh and Tany was really cute.
"Gowri says:
k
pat brown thinks you should get well soon"

She said that to my wifey(her mother)
Cause my wifey is sick.
*Sniffles*
It makes me sad when one of them are sick.
Because I'm too far away to do anything.
I might blog more later....Maybe.



XOXO,
Dollface.

Art, Fashion, Music, Movies.

I've decided to make another blog that'll be purely based on things like Fashion, Music, Movies and Art.
Simply because my creative side is screaming for a blog like that.
And I want to keep this blog the way it is.
This blog is more along the lines of my own personal diary.
The one thing different is that anyone can read this.
And I'm okay with that.



XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. I'll post a link to this new blog after I finish making it.

Pics/Icons

Just a bunch of pictures that I use as icons that I made.
The first three are lyrics from songs I listen to.
The fourth one is lyrics from a song I wrote.
And the last one is some special I made for my wifey.



XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. I'll probably get bored later and make more. Lol.

Limits.

Everyone has them.
So why is it so surprising that I have them?.
And that I've reached them?.
Hell, I've probably passed them.
I'm jittery now.
Nervous almost.
Or maybe anxious is the right word.
I don't know.
I don't care.
There's the problem.

I've reached my limits and I just don't care.
I keep looking around.
Like I'm expecting something.
I almost feel like crying.
But then I don't.
I'm so sick of this.
So sick of my greatest asset being my greatest weakness.
I'm too trusting and it's always been my greatest weakness.
Right along with how kind and caring I am, all three of those things are my greatest weakness.
And my ability to be kind and caring is probably my greatest asset.
I'm so sick of it being a blessing and a curse.

I'm on edge.
I feel like a cat on a hot tin roof.
I'm jumpy.
I keep shifting my weight.
I don't seem to be comfortible no matter what position I'm in.
I'm trying to find a distraction.
So far no luck.
I don't have enough roleplays going on to stay distracted.
I'm just...
I'm confused, I'm jumpy, I'm jittery, I'm annoyed, and yet I don't care.
Like I care.
But then I don't.
I just...
Gah.
I hate this.

Can't anyone help me?.


XOXO,
Dollface.

"But don't tell me where the road ends, cause I just don't wanna know."

New playlist.

1. "Die Tonight, Live Forever." - Innerpartysystem
2. "Unbeautiful." - Lesley Roy
3. "I Feel Better" - Frightened Rabbit
4. "New Poetry." - Innerpartysystem
5. "Love Remains The Same" - Gavin Rossdale
6. "Slow Dancing In A Burning Room" - John Mayer
7. "One Last Breath" - Creed
8. "Let It Rock" - Kevin Rudolph
9. "Angels On The Moon" - Thriving Ivory
10. "Straightjacket Feeling" - The All-American Rejects

Finally just sat down and finished the list.
Title of the blog is lyrics from the song "Angels On The Moon"
I admit that some of those songs on there don't really apply to my sitation, but they fit the mood I'm in.
And sometimes it's just one line in one of those songs that makes me put it on the list.
Sometimes it's much more than that.
It just varies.
I know number 8 doesn't really work, but I love the chorus and the first two verses are pretty good.
Um.
I think I'm gonna post those pics/icons I made in a minute.


XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. About to post another blog about how I've reached my effing limits.

Craigslist.

Went to get our hair done today.
I'm feeling pretty good now that all those dead ends are gone.
We decided to just walk around the mall.
Saw two really cute guys in Belk.
And I couldn't tell if they were checking me out or not, because I was trying to check them out without staring.
But mom was a few feet behind me, trying really, really hard not to laugh.
Because appearently the guys were trying to check me out without staring too, so they were looking at me out of the corner of their eyes.
Mom thought it was hilarious.
I was just shocked they were checking me out.
Um....
OH.
Funny dream last night.

I dreamed that my parents set me up on a blinddate, and on the way to the guys house, this is how the converstation went:
Me: "Do I have to go out with him?."
Mom: "Well, I suppose you don't have too. There was a lot of other guys interested."
Me: "Where'd you find all these people?"
Dad: "Craigslist."
Me: *Jaw drops*
Mom: "We made you this profile thing on there, and this guy...well his family, contacted us within fives minutes after it was posted."

Needless to say the me in the dream was like "WTF."
While the real life me is laughing my ass off because it was so funny.

"Where'd you find all these people?"
"Craigslist."

I mean seriously, isn't that funny?.
I dunno.
It was weird.
Like everything about the dream was either weird/funny.
Lets see.
The tempiture today has been anywhere from 27 Degrees (F) to 34 Degrees (F)
So yeah, pretty damn cold people.



XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. Also, I made a bunch of icons/pictures last night, but there on the other computer so I'll post them as soon as the WIFI starts working.

I almost cried!

Got up, went to church.
Organized the storage/office thingy in the nursery.
Helped clean up the whip cream from the game we played.
Cleaned the girls bathroom.
Went to...uh....Cici's Pizza f0r lunch.
Walked to Payless, mom bought boots and got heels for Penny to go with the dress we got her for christmas.
I found a really cute pair of black heels.
Dad wouldn't let me get them since I got that cut on my foot, cause like since it's there and it hurt to wear the heels a little, he wants to make sure that they won't hurt my feet when my feet aren't already hurt.
So we'll go back in a week or so to try 'em on again.
Went to walmart.
Bought my brother some jeans for christmas and got a case for the new camera.
(HAHA, DID I MENTION I READ ALI'S MIND?!)
Talked my parents into dropping me off at the theater for the performing arts for this christmas concert the HCYO put on.
Mainly went to support my friends Karrie and Ashley who are in it.
And then I got there and found out my cousin Brianna was in it.
So that was cool.
Ended up sitting between this lady in her late-twenties who was with like her dad and two business men.
By the converstation of the business one of their daughters was in it.
Dunno about the lady and the older dude.
The music was excellent.
I couldn't stop smiling when they did "You're a Mean One Mr.Grinch."
It sounded really cool with like the violin and everything else.
They also did The Pink Panther theme song.
So afterwards I hugged Karrie really big and was like "You played The Pink Panther theme song just for me! I'm so happy."
And I literally was.
I nearly cried when they did "Carol of the Bells"
I loved it so much.
Got a compliment on the color of my dress(I wore this pink and purple halter dress with black skinny jeans and high heeled leather black boots + purple skull earrings and a black sparkly beaded necklace)
Didn't see Ashley after the show, got to spend time with Karrie though.
Looks like me, her and Christina already have a date to go see New Moon together.
Lol.
Um...lets see.
Wifi is still being lame.
We just got the desktop fixed.
So I at least have internet access.
Even if it is slow.
About to get off the internet to do some homework.
OH.
Wrote in two of my books today.
However I didn't do alot of writting in one of them.
But the other one got like...a whole page of new stuff.
Still missing my wifey and my daughter.
I'm hoping to play "Find Edward's Human" again tonight.
Oh yeah, at the christmas concert, there was this one.
Really, really cute guy checking me out.
And I didn't even notice because I was freaking out because Karrie was having a blonde moment.
But mom noticed.
And I was like "Dude, that's hot."
And she was like "I know."
And you know what's even more amazing?!
I was in heels!
And he was still taller than me! <3 I
'm hoping that since he saw me with Karrie that maybe he'll ask her about me.
If he does, she'll be sure to tell me.
I might ask Ashley to introduce us. I
'm still not sure I'm ready for a relationship.
But I am getting better.
I'm not perfect.
I still feel....pain over Aaron.
But I'm getting there.
And here's the thing.
There's a chance that I'll still hurt over him at this time next year.
Falling in love with someone...
And then loosing that someone...
Takes a lot out of you.
Sometimes you appear to get over them fairly quickly.
But then a few weeks later something happens.
And your hurting all over again.
It's going to take a very long time.
It's true.
I'm willing to wait.
But at the same time.
I'm not willing to wait forever.
I'll start playing the field now.
Making friends with people.
So that maybe a few months down the road.
When we know each other better, it won't feel so....bad going out with them.
Because I'll know them.
We'll be friends.
They'll know more of my faults and they might even learn about this entire mess.
I understand how Bella feels in the second book.
Aaron was...is....my jacob.
He...
Means a lot to me.
But in this case, it was different.
Aaron was not only my best friend, he was my fantasy, he was also my Edward.
It's like he's slapping me in the face with the whole. "Your not good for me."
He always said he didn't do long distance relationships, but if I was in town, he'd be the first to ask me out.
He said that more than once.
And then BAM.
What's he do? He gets girlfriend who's in Cali.
*Deep breaths* I'm not even angry.
I'm just...irrated?.
No, not even that.
I'm slightly annoyed.
But I'll get over it.
I'll get over this whole sitation.
I'm happy I got to go out and have some fun today.
I'm listening to "Almost Lover" right now.
I just got in the mood to listen to it.
You know, sometimes I really hate myself.
Hate the way I fall in love so easy.
I'll admit, it's not that easy.
The first few months I usually keep my guard up.
With Tyler, he just kinda....he slipped past the guard.
I fell for him without meaning too.
But then I was happy when I did.
I was happy when he felt the same way.
But this is so much different.
I'm always ready for the next time I'll be stabbed in the back.
I'm always looking for the person who's going to do something to me.
And yet, in some strange way.
I still fall for people very easily.
And sometimes I really hate it.
I'm on the verge of tears.
Because as I sit here and type this.
I realize just how true these words are.
*Exhales*

Okay, I really have to do this homework, or else I'll be in major trouble.


XOXO,
Dollface.

The tears may fall, hearts may break, life may suck, but at least you ain't fugly like Pate!

Don't ask about the title.
It was the most random thing in my head.
I was going to do something more....dramatic.
More....poetic.
But nothing came to mind.
And what did was like FOREVER long.

Didn't sleep worth a flip last night.
Kept waking up, and staying awake then falling asleep.
Dreamed of my wifey.
I miss her and Tany very much.
Our desktop computer is being lame.
Our internet still continues to be effed up.
And it's really, really getting on my nerves.

Feel like crying.
Which doesn't make much sense.
I mean it does.
But like it doesn't.
I'm worried about Ali.
It's really strange not being able to talk to her for like...long periods of time.
So I instantly start worrying.
And then like her blogs aren't...the happiest.
Not the worst.
But....it still scares me.
What if something happens?
What if she needs me and I can't be here?
What if.....she gets tired of me not being able to be on and just decides to end our friendship?.
I mean I don't think she'd do that.
It'd take a lot of bullshit to piss her off to the point that she just walks away.
But I don't want to risk it, ya know?.

And like, I'm worried about Tany too.
Appearently she hasn't been eating much.
Also her blog posts tell me how depressed she is.
I'm worried that she's going through that thing I went through when I was depressed.
You know that thing that like messes up how you eat and shit.

*Sighs*
I just really, really wish I could go visit them.
That I could just go spend a week or two up there and just be whatever it is that they need me to be.
Rather it's a distraction from the mayham that is life, or a shoulder to cry on.
Or whatever.
I want to be there for them.
I hate being so far apart.
I know some people wouldn't be able to understand this relationship we have.
Most people think that like a BFF is someone who's always with you, someone who's like always at your house and stuff.
But for me a BFF is more than just someone you see all the time.
I mean, I can see a person all the time, I can know a person extremely well.
But does that make them my bff? No.
It's kinda like how I fell in love with Aaron without ever meeting him in person.

I can be really, really close to someone without seeing them all the time.
Because I'm really big on a person's personality.
If you have a crappy personality, then we won't get along.
It doesn't matter how much we have in common.

And so, Ali and Tany have great personalities.
I love them both very much.
I hate that two of my best friends are so far away.
But someday that'll change.
Even if I have to kidnap them and make them live with me in some beach house in Flordia.
Lol.
But I'm quite serious, y'all.

So uh, yeah.
I don't know where to go with this.
I feel like writting.
I'm just not sure what to write about.
I mean I suppose I could write about that dream I had involving Ali.
I'm sure she'd love to hear it.
OH!
I played "Find Edward's Human" With Emmett last night.
Twas quite fun.
But for some reason mom was playing too....
*shrugs*
OKAY! DREAM TIME!

So it started off with me arguing with Zach...uh...the guy I almost kissed?, yeah that dude.
And I was so pissed that I said something about him like breaking my heart or whatever.
And he was like "It's not my fault she was seventeen and you weren't old enough to date!"
And like I'd never meant to say what I'd said.
And I hadn't expected his response either.
And like we were argueing in my front hallway and then like I was just like "Whatever" and walked off and into the bathroom, because I figured he'd just you know, leave.
And like I just barely saw Dad going to talk to him as I walked into the bathroom.
And then like when I got out of the shower and walked out of the bathroom, I was confronted by my dad and he was like "Look Amy, I talked to him and you should give him a chance. Just hear him out, okay?"
So in my mind I was like "HOLY SHIT DAD'S BEING THE PEACE MAKER?!"
But then I realized as I peeked around the corner that he was still in the main hallway and like Jovan was with him too and I was like "F*ck" Cause I was trying to figure out how to get up stairs to change out of my PJ's without Zach seeing me in them.
So I was freaking out and then I was just like "To hell with it, I don't care if he sees me going to change, I'll just tell him to wait a minute."
So I started to sneak up the stairs and suddenly I hear talking and I looked over the stairwell to find Ali talking to Zach about how like her camera wasn't working and I mouthed the words "What are you doing here?!"
And she just waved me along, like she was trying to be a distraction for me.
So then I was like "It's the guy I almost kissed!" and she kinda nodded while Zach looked over her camera and then she shoo'ed me off again and so I went up stairs and picked out something else to wear and then before I could get back downstairs to talk to him, I woke up.
IT PISSED ME OFF, MAN!.
I WOKE UP AT LIKE 2 AM.
AND NEVER GOT TO FIND OUT.
WHAT HAPPENED.
WHICH MADE ME BE ALL LIKE "GRRRR."
And then I was awake for like thirty minutes.


So yeah.
Now I need to go take a shower.
More dreams tomorrow!.
If the 'net works.



XOXO,
Dollface.

OH I FORGOT.

I got to listen to FOB's new album.
They have this thing on myspace so that the fans can listen to it early like Britney did.
It's pretty good.
I can't wait to buy it.



XOXO,
Dollface

Don't you just love how nothing ever goes right?.

SHIT, SHIT, SHIT, SHIT!.
SSSSSHHHHIIIITTTTT.
CAN'T WE EVER GET A FECKING BREAK?!

Seriously.
Okay, so yesterday was like.
BLEH.
The WIFI wasn't working.
And then MSN died.
So I couldn't talk to Ali.

And now like today, is a freaking day out of hell.
Here's how this bullshit went:
I was awoken at 7:45 AM because one of the firealarms beeped, so she thought something was on fire, and she was freaking out because we were worried that the effing house was gonna go up in smoke.
So at like 8:15 AM we confirmed that the house wasn't on fire and that the house wasn't going to go up in smoke so I was allowed to return to bed.
And I had a hard time going back to sleep.
But I ended up waking up and getting out of bed at like 10:40 AM.
And like it was really cold still but we needed to go to the store, so like we went to the store at like 11 something.
And then like we barely walk in the door and get everything put away and we get this phone call from my brother and...
Ugh.
I want to explain.
And at the same time I don't.
Because if someone who's like...a jackass ever reads this.
Then I don't want this to be like all over the place.
So lets just put it this way.
My brother paid his rent for the next two weeks yesterday.
And this morning the owner basically told Preston to "Get the f*ck out"
And by the looks of things, the guy isn't going to give my brother his two weeks worth of rent back.
Also.
Just found out about 45 minutes ago.
That Josh, who's like family to us.
Was in a car wreck a few hours ago and now he's in the hospital.
And there's like way more to the story than what I've posted.
But like.

This day is totally horrible.
I can't wait for it to end.
And all I can do is pray that tomorrow is better.

But on a funnier note, here's something that happened when we were helping my brother get some of his stuff out of the house he's renting.

And John was like "Why do you need toolboxes? Your a girl"
And the way he said it, it was so sexist.
So I literally kicked him in the ass.
And he was holding this box of stuff when I did it so he was like
"That's not fair! my hands are full!"
And I was like.
"I'm my brothers sister, I don't have to play fair."

So that was funny.

And...and....GAH.
I just.....
I just wish something would manage to go right.
Like this whole year.
Has been pretty shitty for me and my entire family(Including for the people who are like family to us)
This includes Ali and Tany's year.
I'm just like...so sick of it.
I'm so sick of everything.
It's like why isn't it that everything gets better just in time to fall apart again?.

OMG! OMG! OMG!

"Amy says:
GO
Amy says:
OUTSIDE
Amy says:
NOW
Amy says:
AND LOOK
Amy says:
AT THE MOON
Amy says:
AND THEN COME BACK
Amy says:
AND TELL ME WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE
Amy says:
DO IT
Amy says:
NOW"


THE MOON IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
I COULD STARE AT IT FOR LIKE HOURS EVEN THOUGH IT'S FREEZING OUTSIDE.
THERE'S A RAINBOW AROUND THE MOON.
IT'S JUST LIKE...SO AMAZING.



XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. I'll blog again later....Maybe.

WIFI

The WIFI hasn't been working today.
So we only have one computer with internet access at the moment.
Which really, really sucks.
But I am managing to get some work done on my book.
Problem is.
Since the internet isn't working I can't e-mail what I write to myself.
So now I'm worried that I might loose everything again.

Listening to the Innerpartysystem again.
"Don't Stop" is currently playing.
So far I like all of their music.
Oh and I've got a new song to add to my list.

1. "Die Tonight, Live Forever." - Innerpartysystem
2. "Unbeautiful." - Lesley Roy
3. "I Feel Better" - Frightened Rabbit
4. "New Poetry." - Innerpartysystem


Six more to go!!!



XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. I miss my wifey.

Die Tonight, Live Forever.

"You can feel the pounding
Wrapped around your chest
Nothing's too excessive
When you've got nothing left

We're all here 'cos we've lost control
We're all here 'cos we've lost control
We're all here 'cos we've lost control
We're all here 'cos we've lost control

If we all should die tonight
We will have no regrets
If we all should die tonight
We will have no regrets

If this night should take my life
(We cant go back we cant go)
If we all should die tonight
(we cant go back we cant go)

You can see the plastic
Dripping off your face
We may not all be pretty
But we feel pretty fake

We're all here 'cos we've lost control."

The lyrics are taken from the song "Die Tonight, Live Forever." - Innerpartysystem.
I heard the song while we were in Pac-Sun today and I fell in love with the song after like the first thirty seconds, the beat is amazing.

So yeah.
Had a good time shopping today.
We've got 75 percent of the christmas shopping done.
I got a new pair of skinny jeans and some earrings today.
Which is great.
Because I've been in desperate need of earrings.

Um...we didn't get to go into Spencers so I have no clue if Mr.Sexy was working today or not.
*Sniffles*
But we did go into Juicy and dude they had an amazing sell on jewelry, bags and shoes.
And since dad wasn't with us we didn't buy anything from there.
*Sighs*
Oh well.

Had a great time talking to Tracy and Tiffany over lunch.
They're both really awesome.
Of course, I knew Tiffany was since she's my cousin by marriage.
Lol.


So here's the beginning of that new playlist:

1. "Die Tonight, Live Forever." - Innerpartysystem
2. "Unbeautiful" - Lesley Roy
3. "I Feel Better" - Frightened Rabbit


Yeah, I accidently lost the rest of that list Ali sent me.
Heh Heh.
So, I need seven more songs to complete the list.


XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S.
LINKAGE - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eU1DniTu8NU

Transition

I'm at that point, where something has shifted in my mind.
Something small.
But still something.
I'm at that point where I'm transitioning from one state of mind to another.
I'm at that point where the playlist I created with the help of Ali doesn't fit anymore.
I mean the music still fits.
It just doesn't fit my current state of mind.
It fits my past state of mind.
Which means I'm improving to some extent.
It's just a very slow process.
So, I'm hoping when I talk to Ali later she can help me create another playlist.
One that'll fit how I'm feeling now.
I've already got a couple of songs that are going to be on the list, so that should help.

Now if I could just do something to make Tany feel better.....



XOXO,
Dollface.

Possible.

It's possible to move on.
It's possible to be tempted by that which your trying to avoid.
It's possible to distract yourself.
It's possible to still love someone with all of your heart, even if you don't want too.
It's possible to feel the need to scream when someone says something that remains you of why there's an ache in your chest.
It's possible to want to curl into a ball and cry over something someone said.
It's possible to rant and rave and not mean a single thing you say.
It's possible to ignore the pain.
It's possible to not cry yourself to sleep at night.
It is possible to love again.

But sometimes.
The possible seems impossible.



XOXO,
Dollface

"Oh man, I would prolly die from all the cuteness..."

"apechann:
You're very pretty, sweetie... Now I'm really seeing that... :] *hugs again* Sorry, when I see a pretty girl, I look alot...
ccscleader15:
Lol.
FUN!
You oughta catch me when I'm dancing around.
Tis quite funny
apechann:
Oh man, I would prolly die from all the cuteness...
ccscleader15:
XD
apechann:
It would be like radiation... a slow death...
ccscleader15:
That was cute!
That was seriously,
wow.
That was cute
"Oh man, I would prolly die from all the cuteness..." Is going on my fave quotes list.
apechann:
But it would be a happy death... a smiling one... dying with a good and pretty friend.... ccscleader15:
Psh.
Yeah.
apechann:
Sounds like a good way to go.
ccscleader15:
A friend who's half way across the country."


Taken from a converstation that happend just a little while ago.
That comment was seriously cute.



XOXO,
Dollface.

"Was it something that I said?, was it something that I did?."

"Cause I gotta know what would make me unbeautiful."

Title/quote taken from the lyrics of the song "Unbeautiful" By Lesley Roy.
Right now, this song just really kinda fits my mood.
I'm working on this card game I came up with in my sleep.
I think it might end up being really awesome.
Didn't eat much.
Had a very restless night last night.
Kept tossing and turning and waking up.
So I woke up this morning almost as tired as I was when I went to bed last night.

Toying with the idea of begging Ali to roleplay.
But only if she's in the mood for it.
I gave up on getting all the christmas lights/decorations up.
Whats done is done and that's all that's being put up.
No concert tomorrow, because Charlie is going to church with us.
*Sighs*
All I have to look forward to is shopping on tuesday and christmas day when I get my PS2 and Creed CD.
Um...yeah.
That's all I got for now.




XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. OH! and whatever I get from my secert santa, I forgot about that.

LEMME SLEEP!!!!!!!!!........and roleplay! XD

Just ate dinner, but not a lot,
I don't know, I'm just not hungry.
Which is strange considering I worked all day.
I mean sure we had a big lunch, but still.
I should be eating more.

I'm really, really tired.
Keith is cool.
We're thinking about inviting them over to watch the superbowl with us next mouth.
Appearently one of his sons is looking into going to Culinary Art School, too.
Which is awesome.
On the way home I kept slipping up and thinking about Aaron how I used to.
I really wish I could just stop that.
Stop the dreaming of him.

I didn't dream of that other guy last night.
Actually, I didn't dream at all.
I had a very restless sleep.
I kept waking up in the middle of the night, it's one reason I'm so tired now.
I'm about to sign on to MSN.
I'm toying with the idea of going to bed early.
Which is strange, too.
I never, ever consider the possiblity of going to bed before eight.
I kinda wanna roleplay.
Listening to the playlist.
"Reason Why" - Rachael Yamagata, is playing right now.

We're not going to the football game tomorrow, which kinda sucks but I'm cool with it.
I don't think I'm gonna be able to see MDR in concert on sunday, which really sucks.
Um.....did I mention I'm dead tired?.



XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. Some part of me really, really wants to dream of that guy again. Strange, isn't it?

"I pretend I'm okay, but it aches inside"

Kiss My Sass - Cobra Starship
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&VideoID=47534365

Circus - Britney Spears
http://www.britneyspears.com/

Went to work with dad today.
I'm tired.
Had this really weird and yet really awesome dream last night.
It was connected to several other dreams I've had during the past month or two.
It was also like a continuation of one.
I wish I knew who the guy was in the dream, I wonder if I actually know him.
Or if I'll meet him someday.
Something about that embrace in the dream last night felt....too real.
Almost like I actually hugged the guy.
I can still remember the way it felt.
It's strange.
But I kinda like it.

Gotta go to work with dad again tomorrow.
Should be bundles of fun.
I really can't wait to go to sleep.
But I have to wait for dad to get out of the shower, so that I can take a shower.
I'm currently roleplaying and listening to that sad playlist.
I had a decent day today, hardly thought about Aaron at all.
I was so busy working that I barely noticed the ache in my chest.
Keith, Gina's husband, seems really nice.
Of course, I knew whoever Gina was married to had to be.
It's just that I'd never met him before.
(Gina is mine and my mom's hairstylest, her husband is working on the same job site we are)
So yeah, tomorrow should be fun.



XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. YAY! Dad's out of the shower! Now I just have to let the water warm up -_-'
P.S.S. The title of this blog is taken from the song "Seven Days Of Lonely" - I Nine

Haha, I forgot something.

I forgot to mention that I told dad about the concert on sunday.
You know the one with the band Karl's in.
Yeah, that one.
And daddy didn't say no.
Which means he's actually considering it.
Which makes me happy, I could totally use the distraction.
And besides I'd love to see Karl play and possible meet his bandmates.

Oh, I'm working on my book again.
One of the ones about shape shifters.
I haven't worked on it in like a week or so.
So it's a good thing I'm working on it now.
OH! YEAH SOMETHING FUNNY!.

"ccscleader15: But I love everybody, so yeah.
KingBoB432: wahooooot!
KingBoB432: hoot
KingBoB432: hoot
KingBoB432: Imma owl
ccscleader15: Whoa, that was random.
ccscleader15: But I liked it.
KingBoB432: haha"

I don't know why, but I seriously loved that convo.
I suppose it's cause Alex is awesome.
And he's been helping to distract me when it comes to like Aaron and stuff.
Gah, I wish I had saved that convo where we were arguing over rather or not I was boring.
Cause that converstation was hilarious.

Uh...yeah.
I have to send Cree a link to the blog when I'm done.
Speaking of which.
She commented on my blog!
Comments make me smile.
Lol.
I'm happy to know she likes it.
And yeah.
I think that's all I've got to say.




XOXO,
Dollface.

Cute Electrician.

Okay, so I just finished reading Ali's blog.
And she was talking about how that cute electrician they always get came to fix whatever was broken.
And she was like "Which is funny since Dollface is a cute electrician"
Anyways, that made me smile.

I'm really tired, because I had to baby sit this morning.
Which annoyed me.
Because it was really warm today.
And I really wanted to put up more christmas stuff.
But by the time they left.
I was so tired.
I don't think I'm going to be able to enter the contest this year.
Which is really depressing.

Um, I know I should have blogged yesterday.
I just didn't feel like it.
Lets see, we finally had thanksgiving tonight.
Minus the pies.
Mom has to make the pies later this week.
Oh, I have to go to work with dad tomorrow, so no staying up late.
I really, really want to roleplay with Cree.

And....I'm listening to that playlist again.
"Almost Lover" is on right now.
Oh and the new CD by Britney Spears is amazing.



XOXO,
Dollface.

"Pushing on through, all i wanna do is get over you."

So for once, I actually managed to post more blogs in a month than there were days in that month.
Lol.
So yeah, today is december first.
So far it's been...okay.
I'm not sick anymore, so that's good.
But I'm still not eating much.
And....yeah, the best way to discribe what's going on is to tell y'all what I told Cree when she asked if I was okay.

"I'm not crying my eyes out, or holing up in my room. However anytime I see a guy with pale skin and short brown hair, I feel like my heart is being ripped apart. And almost every minute that I'm awake I feel this pain in my chest, So I don't know if I'm okay or not."

She says I'm not okay, but I will be.
And I agree.
It'll just take time.
Talking to Cree and Ali at the moment.
Still listening to that playlist.
Cree asked to see my blog.
I can't blame her for being curious since I always talk about writting in it.
But it was funny.
Because I've never had anyone ask to see it.
So I'm like "Whoa."

Anyways,
I think I'm gonna go.
Because I don't know what to talk about.
OH! I might be geting a PS2 for christmas!.
Lol.
I know, random right?.



XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. The title of this blog is taken from the song "The Hit Parade" - Unkle Bob