Well, this is lovely.

Okay, so I'll start off with good news.


Appearently, I didn't need to worry about my appointment with TCA today because well...they love me.
Like Ms.D.
She wanted me to fill out the paper work today and she was going to get the board of the directors to take a look at it before I left.
Basically I could have been accepted to go to college there today if I had wanted to.
Which surprised the living shit out of me.
I mean seriously, how offten does that happen?.
Of course, I doubt I would have been accepted today, I mean they probably would have waited until like monday and gotten like all the people on the board to look over the paperwork, but still.

Okay, so the school was pretty cool and my parents think I should go there.
I'm still torn on the subject, but I'll probably end up going there.


Alright, now here's the interesting thing.
I was texting Aaron this evening.
And this is basically how it went.

Aaron: "So how are things going?"
Me: "Good, TCA was awesome. You?"
Aaron: "Fine. TCA?"
Me: "Texas Culinary Academy"
Aaron: "I got it, right after I replied."
Me: "LOL!"
Aaron: "Yea funny."
Me: "So how's the weather?"
Aaron: "Fine, sunny and not cloudy. But is that the best you got?"
Me: "No, of course not."
Aaron: "Then start something fun."
Me: "I wanna take you to a gay bar!"
Aaron: "Better."
Me: "I kissed your mom on the armpit."
Aaron: "Huh?"
Me: "It's a parody."
Aaron: "How?"
Me: "NVM"
Aaron: "What?"
Me: "I love you?"
Aaron: "How so?."
Me: "Um...I'll explain when I call later."
Aaron: "When do you want to call?"

So I called him and we talked for a minute or two about pointless stuff and then it went like this.

Me:"So...what do you mean 'How so' Like do you mean do I love you as a friend or what?"
Aaron: "Yeah, basically."
Both of us: SILENT.
Me: "Umm...." *giggles* "This is akaward."
And then I went on to explain how like I didn't want to loose him as a friend and how I'd rather have him as a friend than not in my life at all because he's an awesome friend.
So he was like. "Okay, I won't say anything if it could mess with our friendship."
So I was like "Yeah, I love you as more than a friend."
And he like. "Alright." But it was very quiet, like cautious almost.
"I thought you knew actually."
"I had guessed, but I'm glad you got that off your chest."
or something like that.
So basically, even though I'd said I loved him, he thought I was being my normal self and saying I love him as a friend.
So now he knows.
And now I feel weird because this whole time I thought he knew.

And after that he was like "So is there anything else you want to tell me?"
"Um, nothing good."
"C'mon, you can tell me."
"Yeah, but it's complicated."
And then he talked me into telling him about how I'd been all depressed and stuff and he was like "You should have called me, I would have kept you from doing anything."
"You know, I almost did."
"You should have."
"I know."

And like a bunch of other stuff was said and like I feel relief and yet there's something else, some other emotion that I'm feeling and I can't tell what it is.
And like made me feel a little better though, like he always does.

But anyways, my curfew is coming up so I better go.
Maybe I'll be able to think better tomorrow and then it'll be easier to blog.


XOXO,
Dollface.