Fork.

Stick a fork in me, I'm done.
Literally done.
Life = over.

I blocked Tyler last night because he kept saying how much of a 'real loser' I was and I got pissed.
He talked to me on Sweet and said that he wouldn't do it again and stuff.
But I still haven't unblocked him because I don't believe him.
Because we weren't suppose to be friends anymore anyways.
I broke it off over a month ago.
He just dragged me back in.
And I'm sick of it.
So he's blocked.
End of story.

Ali's pissed at me.
Because I can't care enough about the roleplay.
So we're arguing.
We like never, ever argue.
But we are.
So now I'm pissed and upset.
And we're still arguing about...arguing or something.
Yeah, about arguing and about how I censor stuff.
And yeah.


Like I said.
Stick a fork in me I'm done.
If Ali hates me, I'm fucked.
Because I won't ask Tany to choose me over her.
I'll tell Tany that I love her and she should stay friends with Ali and not worry about me, that I'll be fine.
Rather I am or not.
So if you read this Ali.
Tell me exactly how you feel.
I won't burden my friends.

So if you hate me, say it.
I'll suffer, but I'll deal.


So yeah.


I'm out,
Dollface.

Toast <3

I love burnt toast with jelly.
Seriously, burnt toast is amazing.
Like the burned smell scares me and makes me drool at the same time, weird huh?.
So yeah, I have this think about toast being burned and I don't know why.
Oh and I was foodnetwork earlier and there's like several recipes I'm going to try cause they look amazing.
We're actually going to try one tonight but it's one that I've known about for a while but then mom saw it on foodnetwork today and she was like "That is so neat!"
So yeah, we're more than likely making like dutch apple pancakes.
Or something like that, I never can remember the exact name for it.
'Cept I think we're using peachs instead of apples........


Rofl,
Sounds like fun right?.
Alright, so Ali just got online <3
So I think I'm gonna go...
Oh and while I'm gone I'm gonna get more burned toast, yummy!.



XOXO,
Dollface.

GO ALI!

Lol, Ali has me addicted to another song.
So I decided to post a list of the ten songs I've listened to the most the past like three days.


1) "Once" - Caleb Kane
2) "Bang" - Armchair Cynics
3) "El Tango De Roxanne" - Moulin Rouge
4) "Clair De Lune" - Debussy
5) "Message To The World" - Story Of The Year
6) "Got Me Going" - Day 26
7) "Black Dirt" - Sea Wolf
8) "Slow Dancing In A Burning Room" - John Mayer
9) "I Don't Think She Loves Me" - Scenes and Sirens
10) "See Ya Later Alligator" - The Comets


The song that Ali introduced me to just recently would be "Black Dirt"
She made a video to it.
And it's bad ass.
I hope she finishes it sometime.
I wanna see the rest of it!!!.
Lol. I sound so demanding.
It's like "DO IT NAO!"
XD
Joking.
Okay, so.
Me and her shared a moment yesterday.
http://thisiswhatabloglookslike.blogspot.com/2008/10/we-shared-moment.html
It was awesome.
And yes, I do actually expect all my readers(However many that may be) to click on that link.
Unless you're Ali, then you don't have to 'cause well...ya know. She was there when it happened.
OMG, speaking of that.
I had the strangest dream last night.
My friend Ashley was like spending the night at Ali's house on thanksgiving(canadian thanksgiving) and like then she came to my house and I was freaking out because I was like "But Ali told me only her brother and mom were there!. Like that whole time she was talking to me and you were there too!" So I was all freaking out and shit and IDK. It was really, really weird.

So yeah, I think I'm gonna run.



XOXO,
Dollface

Photos part 2

Alright, so the names are all done from left to right. I didn't really upload the photos in any order either. Oh and I'll be posting part 2.5 tomorrow.
So enjoy the photos ya'll!.

Bryce and Zack

Avery, Tanner and Zach.

Channing, Noah and Junior.

April and Brandon.

Beau, Tanner and Brendan.

Sean, Chris and David.

Geneva and Stephen.

Brandi and Tyler.

Jovan and Laura.

Jason and Karl.

Ethan and Jeff.

Audrey and Dustin.

Arthur and Oliver.

Aaron and Amber.

Ali, Lee and Arjun.




XOXO,
Dollface.

Perverted/Funny/Strange moments.

September(or)October 2006:

So me and my parents are at this jobsite. The jobsite being a gas station that was being remodeled and my parents were doing the electrical work. And there's these five guys we were working with. Rick, Joe, Darrel, RW and Frodo(Nickname) and like they were doing some cocking and stuff and I was talking to them about bank robbiers and stuff. So when RW...or was it Frodo?. I don't remember, but one of them handed me one of the cockingguns because they needed me to hold it for a minute while they moved their latter. So then I got this Idea and I lifted it up, pretending that it was a real gun and was like "Stick your hands up! this is a cock up!" Of course, I didn't realize what I'd said at first until the guys were literally LMAOing and then I started blushing like crazy.

Yup, that's my most perverted moment ever. Funny, eh?.


Today, October 13th:

So, it started raining this morning on mine and my mom's way to Johnnys(A gas station/subway) and mom was saying how it'd better continue to stay cloudy because we didn't need to start "Sparkle"
Which of course made me LOL.
So then at the same time I said "Emmett! lets go play some baseball." My mom said "Ethan, come out, come out whereever you are."
So I gave her this strange look and she was like "What? Isn't Ethan your Edward?"
"Yeah I guess. Oh my God. Wouldn't it be funny if you said that and then that pecon tree shook over there like someone had jumped in it?"

So yeah, we discussed Twilight for a couple of blocks before moving on to a different topic. Strange and Funny huh?.


So now what's really strange is how there's all these silences between me and Ali and I don't know what to do about them. Like seriously. I sit here and I'm like...."Omg, what do I say?" Which is totally strange because before I had no problem coming up with stuff so now I'm like "WTF" Hopefully this is just like a phase I'm going through.
Maybe I'll be over this soon and we can go back to our normal relationship.


XOXO,
Dollface.

Photos part 1

So, I'm bored.
So I'm going through all my friends pictures.
And I'm going to post my most favorite picture that they have on their myspace and I'm posting it here.
Now hopefully they don't get pissed about it.
Lol.
So shall we begin?

First I'll start off with all my online friends photos. A.K.A. people who I've known less than a year, who I've met online.



Okay, so for some strange reason, I can't get the photo to change position. But this is my little bro Ry. I love him very much

This is Arcy, he has extremely sexy jeans and beautiful eyes. <3

And this beautiful girl is Foxx, she's totally badass.

This is my big sis Alli, I think she looks sexy with red hair.

-DRAGON DOES NOT HAVE A PHOTO POSTED DUE TO FACT I COULDN'T FIND ONE THAT I REALLY, REALLY LIKED-

-JD ALSO DOES NOT HAVE ONE FOR THE SAME REASON-


This is Jason's cat, Mooshoe. Because I couldn't find the picture of him that I wanted. XD

This is Adrian, yeah he's pimp.

-SHANE DOES NOT HAVE ONE BECAUSE I COULDN'T FIND THE ONE I WANTED-


Say hello to the cutie named Johnson.

-JAY DOES NOT HAVE ONE BECAUSE HE DIDN'T HAVE ANY OF HIM ON HIS MYSPACE!!-

This is my little bro fufu. I love him very, very much and he is NOT emo.

This is Jordin, she's listens to awesome music.

This is Neko-chan, she's funny. ^_^

-KENNY DOES NOT A HAVE A PHOTO BECAUSE ONCE AGAIN I COULDN'T FIND ONE I LIKE-


And this beautiful girl is Rachel, she's totally awesome and has great taste in music.

-JOSH DOES NOT HAVE ONE BECAUSE ETC, ETC, ETC-


And this cutie is Rien, he's my big bro.

And this texas hottie is Ryan.

This is Victora, she's a goofball and she's a fan of Nick Jonas like I am.

This is Wuba, she's awesome and she goes to almost all our sexyparties.

And this totally sexy guy is Xry. He pwns.

Alright, so there's like twenty people not mentioned or listed here because I cannot get a hold of them at the moment to get their photos. So yeah this is PART 1.
I'll post part 2 tomorrow.
So I hope you guys enjoyed this blog.

XOXO,
Dollface.

Once.

Once I was real
Once I was somebody's child
Once I could feel
Some feeling once in a while
Once I was here
Once I was somebody's friend
Once I appear I will be real once again


- Caleb Kane, "Once."

This song is so amazing.
I just love it.
The lyrics are so deep, so true.
I've watched people fall.
And just recently everyone around me watched me fall.
Now I'm at a standstill. Sorta.
I'm trying to crawl my way out of this dark abyss.
And I'm slowly working my way back to being my normal self.
With Ali's, Bernice's, Aaron's, Arjun's and my family's support.
I'm slowly working on returning to being...me.

It's not an easy battle.
Nor is it one I want to fight.
Apart of me.
A weaker part.
Just wants to give up.
But that weak side isn't me.
I am strong.
I can be weak sometimes.
But usually I am the rock everyone can relie on.
Sometimes I need to lean on other people though.
Aaron has seriously helped me get out of this...rut.
The only reason I single out certain people.
Is because sometimes that one person will do one thing, just one that makes them stand out amongest all the people that are here for me.
And he's done it.
I said he'd either make me or break me.
And he's doing everything in his power to not let me break.
And I'm happy for that.

So anyways.
I promise that I am not sliping back into my depression.
I promise that this is just me blogging to make sure that I don't slip into it.
So, now I will post the lyrics to this song.
And I think all of you can picture singing it to me when I was depressed.
Because I could picture all of you singing it.
Just like I can picture myself singing it to some of you during those times ya'll almost break.
Just like I could picture you guys singing it to me even now.
Just like I could sing myself to sleep with this song, or dance to it.

So here it is, the number one on my top ten songs this week.


"You change in front of me
Your eyes get darker every day
It happens quietly
Your focus slowly burns away
And if you let me hear
The things you seem to wanna say

I will wait
I will wait to go
Until I know you're somewhere safe

And even if you chose
To lock yourself away
If I listen close
I can almost hear you say

Once I was real
Once I was somebody's child
Once I could feel
Some feeling once in a while
Once I was here
Once I was somebody's friend
Once I appear I will be real once again

You're falling into it
An inescapable place
Or something intimate
Between the you that no one sees
Is there a way inside
You only hide from enemies
Cause I'll wait
I'm afraid you won't get rid of me so easily

And even if you chose
To lock the world away
If I listen close
I can almost hear you say

Once I was real
Once I had something to lose
Once I could feel
Once I was harder to bruise
Once I was here
Once I was willing to mend
Once I appear I will be real once again

You're falling farther than
I've ever seen you fall before
For me to wonder when
I'll recognize you anymore
To see no light inside your eyes at all
To bang my head against the wall
And force myself to watch you fall away

And even if you chose
To lock the world away
If I listen close
I can almost here you say

Once I was real
Once I was somebody's child
Once I could feel
Some feeling once in a while
Once I was here
Once I was somebody's friend
Once I appear I will be real once again

Once I was real
Once I was somebody's child
Once I could feel
Some feeling once in a while
Once I was here
Once I was somebody's friend
Once I appear I will be real once again"


For some reason, I just love this song and I believe that in some strange way it fits me.
It's an amazing song.
A beautiful song.
Well written.
The melody is just perfect.

And so now I must leave you.
I promised to take my nephews to go catch flies for Denali.
So, I shall return later on.


XOXO,
Dollface.

P.S. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RcJb-rjSjYI